Airport Update

Gracious me! It's been a long time brothers and sisters. I'm at the Denver Airport, sitting at the Woody Creek Bakery and Cafe, another seemingly Aspen Valley spun business expanding into the exosphere. I'm sweating profusely. Miles, a young Army reservist who was sitting on the plane next to me on the Aspen to Denver flight, was telling me how because he only cares about enjoying life (we only have one after all) he likes to drink and smoke and get crazy, and I was saying, for the same, only one life, reason, I'm sober. He asked me if I drink coffee. I responded in the affirmative. He told me that he had me cold, I'm not sober. My sweat glands don't seem to think i'm sober either. Between my ADD medication and a serious caffein habit, young Miles may have my number. Relativity may be a flawed theory, but in this case, I'm going to plead it. At least i'm relatively sober. Compared to getting stoned from morning till night, and getting nearly drunk every day by sundown, this caffeination may be some sort of dangerous super sobriety. I'm agitatingly aware of my feelings of agitation. This is no drunkenness, but I'm still avoiding my study of the prophets with this blogpost. So ladies and gentlemen, brothers and sisters both Gonzo and greedhead, I wish you all safe travels. Aloha.

Goose Wrangler

Happy Birthday Bob and your Sober fan Mr. Wrangler

2012 in Socially Constructed Reality.

Well, on 1/11/12 I made it to a year of sobriety. I'm sitting here watching the Denver Broncos get slaughtered in the playoffs by the New England Patriots. It's not looking good. It's a blood bath. But i'm on the bus. No cocktails, no weed, no powdered inhalants up my nose. Not much to report, graduate school, secret meetings, studying, heartless romance, same old, same old. The Sober Gonzo has been preaching about once a month. That's always interesting. Oh, that's a good idea. Maybe I'll post the most recent sermon. Anyways. Doesn't look good for Tim Tebow and the Broncos tonight. Not looking good at all. But I'm going to sleep sober tonight. One day at a time. That's all it takes. One day at a time.

Still Here

Haven't given up yet. Last year about this time, I jumped off the wagon again, after I had a gym bag, a back-pack, and a couple of full journals stolen, car window smashed through in San Francisco. It was an Olympics bag from the 1980's. A few days before it happened I had a dream that there was a crackhead wearing that bag, who had a couple of my journals.  I had the dream written down, on the first page of a journal I was writing in, sitting in a restaurant in downtown SF, while my car was getting broken into a few blocks away. They stole one or two full journals, full of poetry, and the first few pages of The Father of Lies. They also got some gym clothes and an older pair of running shoes, and a bunch of theological books. Probably very little that a crack smoker was looking for. The glove compartment was unlocked. They left the ipod in it. There was also a camera and a hard drive with resale value, sitting under the Olympics bag, that the thief overlooked in the darkness and their hurry. Oops. Maybe they will finish my book for me.

A few days later I started getting drunk again, smoking weed and drinking wine. A month or so later I tried smoking crack. I bought it from a man in downtown San Francisco, but he wasn't wearing my bag. And the high was no good anyhow. I'm glad about that.

If I keep taking it one day at a time I will have 11 months sober on the 11th day of the 12th month of the 11th year of the 21st century; but numbers are just about as over-rated as crack.

Nonetheless, I think I'll just stay on track, play it safe, stay off the crack, and leave the past where it is.

Return to Aspen

The sober gonzo has returned
To his home
Full of drugs and beauty
Has left the drugs behind
Heading to the Woody Creek tavern
To drink iced tea
Up on the sunny mountainside now
And walking down
Into the future
After taking the ultimate drug
Life
Don't want to disturb it
With any silly substance
That I might have to come down from

The best part about sobriety is that you never come down. The worst part about sobriety is that you never come down.

Riding the Sharp Edge of Insanity

WEEHAA!!

Ladies and Gentlemen, boys and girls, cawbirds, eagles, and squirrals, listen to the madman, who sits atop the dusty nest of twigs. The hardest part of madness is keeping the balance of its beauty; and doing this without the substances that you used for years to balance it all out, but which finally led you to completely flip out. Yes old friends, the Sober Gonzo has not yet lost the game. I'm still on board the ship, still dry up here on the sunny deck, but its foggy here in Berkeley, as I torture myself in the theological world of faith based hermeneutical readings. Take it one day at a time. That's what they say. And it's all I can do. Lighten the old boy up, and chill him out. California, surrounded by crazies. Just like me. Aren't we all reflections of each other when the chips fall, humanoids? As our DNA reproduces itself on down the line, running around the earth skin, cruising on up that freeway out of Africa? Yes, old friends, we're all going somewhere. Where are we going?

Take er easy,

Goose Wrangler